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2008-01-01T22:14:00.004+08:00

Blog moved .

Thanks & bye 2007 ...

2007-12-30T18:16:00.001+08:00

I never knew how important you
are to me , until I was so near to
losing you . I never knew how much
I loved you , until I heard your weeps .
I never knew that I could not do without
you , until you told me 'the choice is yours' .

Henry Tan , I'd never let you go again .

2007-12-28T00:50:00.001+08:00

Within a blink of eyes , another year
is gonna pass soon . Thinking about
all those stuffs and things which happened
throughout these months . Some are worth
commenting , whereas some are not even
worth to be given a damn about . Friends
whom I knew , old or new ones . Those
who stayed and those who left . Hopefully ,
I'd be able to grow more and learn more this
coming year . By not going through the hard
way ... =]

2007-12-27T01:35:00.001+08:00

2007-12-25T16:28:00.001+08:00

The only girl that deserves you ,
is the one who thinks she doesn't .
The one that will stick by your side ,
no matter how much you mess it up .
& the one who will forgive you ,
mistakes after mistakes ,
lies after lies .

Sorry , I can't be so noble ...
This is the furthest that I can go .

2007-12-18T20:16:00.000+08:00

A stranger stabs you in front;
a friend stabs you at the back;
a boyfriend stabs you at the heart;
but a best friend only poke each other with straws.
A true friend is someone who sees the pain in your eyes,
while everyone believes the smile on your face...
True friends are hard to find, difficult to leave ,
and impossible to forget.

2007-12-14T19:27:00.000+08:00

I seriously miss Toh XinYi . Like omfg .
I'm missing her now . Nevermind , she'd be back
soon . & This picture is my way to express my
misses for her . LOL !

2007-12-07T22:44:00.000+08:00

Guys tend to think that girls will
always be there for them forever ,
they think that girls are toys , meant
to be played and thrown around , they
never know how good the girls are treating
them until the day when the girls are not
bothering them or giving a damn about
them anymore . Then they'd start to
regret . But aren't all these a little bit
too late?

2007-11-27T22:31:00.001+08:00

Maybe I can now truly understand
what it meant by money makes the
world go round . And why money is
actually the root of evil . =/ Pathetic .

2007-11-21T20:46:00.000+08:00

Bloody hell saddened ! Rawr .
My poor little laptop got attacked
by bloody worms 32 . Omfg . =/
Veryyyyyyyyyy saddening ! Even
that bloody only leftover laptop for
me is also attacked by that damn worm .
May they die in hell ! Grr . Beware of
them . =[ SADDED .

2007-11-20T18:58:00.000+08:00

Thanks to those who remembered my birthday .
Thanks to those who forgotten all about it too .
Although there are several people whom I didn't
expected to send me the wishings , but they did .
But at least , now I truly know who are the ones
who even cared or bothered ... ;/ Pretty saddening .
But well , thats life . Isn't it ...?

2007-11-13T19:57:00.000+08:00

Some claimed that friends are there
only to make use of each other . Just
because when you're in need of someone
to accompany you or talk to , then you'd
go to your friends . Whereas some think
that friends are those who go through thick
and thin in life with you . They will never
leave you in lurch . But take a good look ,
how many of you are actually proud to say
that such people do exist in your life ? Even
if they do , how long were they there ? ;/

People meet by fate . & It is fate that
pulls people together as friend . Yet fate
ain't easy to come by . Contradicting , I know .

I'm so tired , so tired of everything . It sucks
definitely to realise that I actually don't know
you at all . You're right , I'm just a nobody to you .
I don't know you . I don't understand you . Friends .
Such a simple word , can't even describe me & you ...

2007-11-09T16:15:00.001+08:00

Nothing much to post about .
Thus posting 2 chinese compo
written for the enrichment . =/
Click to see larger image . =]

Does having money means happiness ?

Is there a need for problems in life ?

2007-11-06T23:08:00.000+08:00

How many times had we actually hurt
others with our words unknowingly ?
I don't deny , actually I do hurt others
with my words at times , but I swear it
wasn't on purpose . But sometimes its
just way too late to salvage it . Even if
it is salvaged , there will still be some
little problems here and there . I swear
I'm very sorry about it , but I'd try to
improve myself in this area . So why not
take a good time for us to think about all
those times which we've actually hurt
others with our words , and actually
try to turn for the better now ? =]

2007-11-05T22:54:00.000+08:00

I'm practically deleting every
single post which I think is
being useless posted up here
after I've finished typing .
I don't know what I want too .

2007-10-11T18:52:00.000+08:00

Who says I'm not happy ? Haa .
I'm duper ultra super happy today !
Because ... I ate around 3 plates of
sashimi , 6 pieces each plate . How
unhappy can i get ? =]

Thinking about those times when we could
talked about practically everything in the
whole wide world , laugh about every single
joke that we'd crack to cold each other or
make each other laugh the hell out , we'd
go everywhere and anywhere together ,
we used to be the bestest friends ,
but yet , we were nowhere near now ...

2007-10-05T16:16:00.000+08:00

For the whole week , theres nothing else
other than study , exams , study , exams .
I think I did quite badly for the papers .
But its okay , at least I know I've really
tried my best . I've not wasted my time
away idling and doing nothing but studying .
So yeah , even if the hard work doesn't pay
off , at least I'm contented that I've tried .
After all , I ain't not superwoman ... =]

I just hope you'd know , no matter how long
we've not contacted each other , no matter
how long we've never talked to each other ,
no matter how bad others speak about you ,
no matter how much you've changed , it just
doesn't matters whatever had happened .
Because that one I knew will always be you ,
I won't judge you by your looks , the things you
said , your reputation , your whatsoever .
But just the you , for you . =]

2007-09-30T14:26:00.001+08:00

I'm losing faith . I'm even losing
my self-control . Worst of all , I'm
losing the will to try . I don't wanna
interpret things anymore . I don't
wanna try to even understand anymore .
I'm so tired of all these shit . Whatever
it is , I can't be bothered anymore . Just
you so remember this , Karma - what
goes around would come around too .
And I just hope that you'd know , I just
way too hate people who restrict me to
do things and stuffs , hope you jolly well
stop it before I ask you to fuck off from
my life . I definitely believe that I deserve
the basic respect that I should get .

2007-09-25T17:19:00.000+08:00

My mind is shutting down ,
and delirium is taking over ...

2007-09-23T21:31:00.000+08:00

Its no use crying over spilled milk .
Buck uppppppppppp ! =]

2007-09-20T19:42:00.000+08:00

Failure is not the end ,
its only the beginning .

I really hoped that I would
persevere on and not give up .

2007-09-16T19:19:00.000+08:00

Never will once upon a time have a happy ending ...

2007-09-13T19:03:00.000+08:00

I may seem to be happy just because
of that fact that I'm always seen laughing .
But I'm just trying to hide my emotions .

I may seem to be very independent just
because I'm hardly seen relying on anyone .
But its that I don't know who to rely on .

2007-09-10T19:04:00.000+08:00

Everyone would have their own
dirty little secret that they would
never ever want to reveal ...

The higher expectation you have ,
the greater disappointment you'd get .
Why is it that I'm never good enough ?
Whatever I do , I just never seems to be comparable .

2007-09-06T09:09:00.000+08:00

Why are we always trying to pose for the
best posture for the camera, when we know
we can never change reality ?
Why must we always try to be the best
by putting multiple mask of disguise for
different people ?
Why do we always tend to remember what
our parents have not done for us , but always
seems to forget what they have done for us ?

You may be pondering at the questions ,
you may be even laughing at them , but just
think again , are you so sure that you'd
say you've never ever done them before ?
Just accept the fact , the world is this cruel .

10 3 SS questions .
~~Chemistry worksheet .~~
~~Geography assignment .~~
~~English worksheet .~~
~~E-maths worksheet .~~
~~E-maths 7.1 .~~
~~A-maths worksheet .~~
Chinese storybook .

2007-09-01T17:01:00.000+08:00

Life is pretty random . Got back CA2 results ,
L1R4 - 11 . Improved from 19 to 11 .
L1R5 improved from 27 to 15 . =D
This 1 week term break don't seems
like a break at all . Totally have no time
to take a break . I should really stop
procrastinating already . Not much time left ...

10 SS questions .
~~Chemistry worksheet .~~
Geography assignment .
English worksheet .
E-maths worksheet .
E-maths Ex 7.1 .
A-maths worksheet .
Chinese storybook .

2007-08-27T19:15:00.000+08:00

Maybe its not how the world looks at you ,
but how you look at the world . But somehow ,
your own thinkings will be affected by
surrounding factors from the world too ?
In this society , everyone wanna ace and soar
up high . Having only first in their mind . I seriously
don't understand , whats so much of being second ?
Isn't being second as good ? Why must you alway
try to be the best ? Why to be the first ? You'd get
all the fame , all the attention , everything that you
want . But in the end , you'd only find yourself having
nothing at all . Cause all these are superficial , once
you're not the first , all these will be gone . None will
ever stay . Contradicting again , I know .

2007-08-25T18:15:00.000+08:00

I feel so much like crying out .
But I find no reason to do so .
Everything is doing great , yet ...
I just feel so bad inside .
Worst thing is , I don't know why .
Yes , I know I'm contradicting myself .

2007-08-24T20:54:00.001+08:00

I've been having this I-hope-Friday-comes-now
thinking since Monday . & Finally its Friday !
Seriously , I've nothing much to blog about .
Life is sooo random . Everyday I get home from
school , I'd watch the 7pm Channel 8 show till 8pm .
Then I'd bath and do my homework etc till 10plus .
& I'd head to bed before 11pm .
This is how the cycle goes on .

2007-08-20T18:30:00.000+08:00

Sometimes we may just be too blinded by
jealousy , anger so much so that we tend to
neglect about other people's feeling . But when
you want people to care about your feelings ,
ask yourself first . Did you ever give a damn to
how others feel ?

2007-08-14T19:27:00.000+08:00

What am I supposed to do or react to it ?
What feelings am I supposed to have ?
Hatred ? Shocked ? Excitement ? Anger ?
Shameful ? Or utter disappointment ...
Seriously , I despise you . From head to toe .
Have you ever thought of the consequences
before you do anything ? Won't you even feel
the guilt or regretted it ? Search your own
conscience , have you done this thing right ?

2007-08-12T20:53:00.000+08:00

To those who have laughed at me , I wanna thank you .
Without you , I wouldn't have cried .
To those who have pushed me , I wanna thank you .
Without you , I wouldn't have fallen .
To those who have hurt my feelings , I wanna thank you .
Without you , I wouldn't know how to feel .
But most importantly , I wanna thank those who
thinks that I can't do it ...
Without you , I wouldn't be trying so hard now .

I know success won't come within a day or two .
But I believe , determination would never fail me .

2007-08-10T23:34:00.000+08:00

Went Town , just pratically walk around and around .
Then went to meet up with all the others , was thinking
to go and slack after dinner . But Dawn said The Secret
is nice , recommended us to watch . Then we immediately go
buy movie tickets . =/ Then went Seoul Garden to eat till
around the movie time . Was practically laughing away at
the first part of the movie . Until the last 40 mins , which is
the sad part where everyone starts crying , we quietened down .
Almost 4/5 of the people in the cinema was crying , for both sexes .
Uhh , tried so hard to see which part is sad . =.= The last part ,
is more like a ghost movie or what ? I was covering my eyes .
Okay , I know its stupid . But yeah . Anyway the show is kinda sad .
But I didn't tear a single bit . Huiying did tear a bit ! HAHAHA . =x
Dawn tear like water tap . And the guys almost cried ? Lol . =/

2007-08-04T21:17:00.000+08:00

Freaking tired + kena sunburn ! =[
Went for YFC , went around helping people
to wash their cars . Not as well as we expected .
Some of the people were very nice ! They offered
us drinks , and even ice-cream ! And even said
want to email our school principal to tell her about
our good job . Haha . But ... It was damn tiring . & We
got barked by damn many dogs . Irritating dogs -.-
My face became red and painful , my hand became
tanner and quite painful . Legs are as though they've
just step lemon . One word - SUAN !

2007-08-01T18:18:00.000+08:00

Maybe I'm just too fortunate .
Fortunate till I don't even know
how to be contented easily . I tend
to ask for even more . But isn't it
the human's nature ? When you have five dollars
and on the other hand , one hundred dollars ,
which one would you choose? Obviously the
majority would choose the latter , so do I .

My life has been in pretty much of a mess .
Seriously , I should really get back to my old life .
I'm trying hard to get a hang of my life .

2007-07-31T20:01:00.000+08:00

True friends will never doubt you .
True friends won't hide anything from you .
True friends will just expect you to be just you .
They will not pretend to be someone else ,
or give in to you when you are in the wrong .
True friends will not put on a mask in front of you ,
and wears it off when they are not with you .
True friends will tell you how ugly you look , even if
you'd ignore him or whatsoever aftermath .

Are you a true friend ? Sighs .

2007-07-29T19:39:00.000+08:00

If one day you feel like crying , call me .
I don't promise that I will make you laugh , but I can cry with you .
If one day you want to run away, don't be afraid to call me .
I don't promise to ask you to stop , but I can run with you .
If one day you don't want to listen to anyone ; call me .
I promise to be there for you but also promise to remain quiet .
But one day if you call , and there is no answer .
Come fast to see me . Perhaps I need u .

2007-07-27T20:59:00.000+08:00

Didn't wanna go OBS during sept holidays ,
cause only 1 week holidays , if go OBS left with
nothing , so couldn't accompany Yiwen . =]
Went for AEM interview today , pretty afraid .
Cause actually the group going for interview together
got 5 people , in the end 2 backed out . Left 3 . -.-
Went in , & they asked some random questions .
I guess I won't even get selected cause its like so
many people wanna go luh . Okay , nevermind .
Afterall , its just a experience to go to Poly to try-out .
And maybe even direct admissions to Poly only .
Its alright if I don't even get to be selected . =]

So often , I feel my tears right at the edge of my eyes .
So often , I just wished I could cry out so badly .
So often , I just feel like giving up everything .
So often , I really feel like asking you ...
Do you even bother about how I feel ?

2007-07-25T19:48:00.000+08:00

2007-07-23T20:11:00.000+08:00

I wouldn't deny , once you're down on
your luck , everything would just seems
like going against your way . Sighs .
Shan't mention much . There are just too
much to be elaborated ... Just pray hard
that things would turn out for the better .

Sometimes I wonder ...
Would I still be the first one you'd think of
when you met up with any problems/troubles ?
Would you miss those times when we talk
about almost everything in the world ?
Would my name ever appear in your mind
when someone mention about the word "friend" ?

2007-07-22T14:39:00.000+08:00

Went to the doctor's , cause the pains
still persist . Complained to the doctor ,
he said the pains I have is gastric pains &
he chided me , asked me to see him again next
week to take X-ray if the pain still persists
cause maybe gastric got hole or something -.- ,
then ask me if I wanted injections or not ,
I objected to the idea , cause I didn't bring
enough cash . Paid for the medicines & stuffs .
Freaking 149bucks . If I had agreed to injections ,
I guessed 200 bucks also not enough -.- Grrrrrrr !

& the medicine doesn't taste that bad , it
has a peppermint taste . =x

2007-07-21T21:45:00.000+08:00

Been having gastric/stomach pain since midnight .
Couldn't sleep well in the night , due to the pain .
Supposed to go out today , prepared and all ,
but last minute back out . The pain was unbearable .
Stayed at home and slept throughout the whole
afternoon , yet the pain still comes and go .
Maybe could be because I ate Laksa + F&N gasy
drink , thats why will have the pain . Food poisoning ?
To hell with the pains . =[ cause it still hurts .

2007-07-20T21:01:00.001+08:00

Tuesday .

Wednesday .

Thursday .

Friday .

2007-07-17T19:08:00.000+08:00

2007-07-14T21:53:00.000+08:00

Life is like so ... crap .

Friday 13 , got kicked out of school .
Those damn red spots are driving me crazy.
Really shouldn't have laughed at others when
they got it . Its like so damn itchy .
Monday - Dawn got it .
Tuesday - Jessica got it .
Wednesday - Yiwen got it .
Thursday - Zhuona got it .
Friday - I got it .

Had been having weird dreams for past few days .
One day I dreamt of losing everything and
everyone around me , another day I dreamt
of myself being unable to see ; blind .

Happy 1 month . =D

2007-07-07T15:43:00.000+08:00

Camp was great . Dragonboat ; kayak ;
sea rafting ; CRC ; zipline ; campfire .
It was pretty sad , nobody wants the camp to be
ended . But nonetheless , good things never last .

Birdy OEI ~
OEI ~
Birdy OEI ~
OEI ~
Birdy Birdy OEI ~
Birdbird ! Forest ! Goooo , BIRDY !

1 2 3 4 ; 1 2 3 4 ; 1 2 3 4 !
Suck the jelly ~
Suck the jelly .
Suck the jelly .
Suck the jelly .
Suck the jelly .
Suck the jelly .
Suck the jelly .
SUCK !
Wanwan suck the jelly .
YOU! Suck already ?

Si mi lj ~
Ji pa ho li poon bubble ~
Ji pa ho li kun chap ni ~
Wa ho li song song gao jurong ~
Totally no standard !

2007-07-03T20:53:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was a pretty hilarious day
out with the usual peeps . Mengkiat &
Weilun got molested by a malay kid on their
butts . Maybe their butts seduced her . Xinyi
almost got molested by her too . Worst of all ,
her mother came staring at us . =.= & We saw
half of a guy's butt . Laughed all the way . =x
Today was a pretty bad day ? I don't know .
Anyway , will be off for Sec3 camp @ Changi
tomorrow till Friday . Prays hard that it rains
tomorrow . =/

Do their butts look seducing ?

2007-07-01T14:52:00.000+08:00

Sometimes its just so disheartening ...
When the one whom you thought would be
there to be the one for you always , when the
one whom you thought would stay by you
always , when the one whom you thought
will be just a message/call away , when the
one whom you thought who care the most ...
Actually is the one who aren't there for you ,
the one who walks out on you , the one who
doesn't even give a damn to you ...

I'm utterly disappointed in you ... Sighs .

2007-06-28T17:02:00.001+08:00

Death - a mystery ; the fear of the unknown .
Many people tends to get afraid of the topic .
& even tried to shun away as far as they could .
But the problem is , can we ever run away from death ?
No . There would be a day when you have to die too .
Don't know why I suddenly feel like blogging about this .
But I guess , this is a really sensitive topic .
You may say , death is nothing . But do you fear ?
I fear of it , though I know its part and parcel of life .
Having the thoughts of leaving your loved ones ,
won't you fear about it too ? Won't you think of ,
how lonely will it be to be dying alone ? I mean ,
who the hell knows what happened after you died .
But upon having the thoughts about death ,
there will be so few who will no fear about it .

2007-06-25T19:56:00.001+08:00

Slept around 3plus , thus only had
3 hours plus of sleep only . =[
First day of school wasn't as bad .
Didn't really had lesson , but still
had parts & so . Was early today .
Reached school around 7.35am . =/
Had Chemistry presentation today ,
pretty hilarious & stuffs . ((:
Anyway , I grew taller ! 160cm . =D

Contrast . =X

2007-06-24T20:15:00.000+08:00

Stuffs I'm bringing to school tomorrow .

Some things are so hard to be fixed back .
Some things are so hard to be forgotten .
Some things are so hard to be erased .

2007-06-22T17:51:00.000+08:00

Phobia for school reopening is coming back!
I'm enjoying my last few days of holidays ,
with uncompleted homeworks . =x

1. ~~Chemistry worksheet~~
2. ~~Chemistry project~~
3. ~~Physics project~~
4. Geography project (halfway?)
5. ~~A'maths tys~~
6. ~~A'maths textbook~~
7. E'maths worksheet
8. ~~E'maths online assignment~~
9. Social Studies project (halfway)
10. Chinese storybook

2007-06-21T20:47:00.000+08:00

There comes a time when we stop loving someone ,
not because that person has stopped loving us , but
because we have found out that , they'd be happier
if we let go ...

There are things that we never want to let go of ,
people we never want to leave behind ,
but keep in mind that letting go isn't the end of the world .

A great love is when you shed tears & still care for them ,
when they ignore you and you still long for them .
When they begin to love another and yet you smile & say ,
"I'm happy for you." ...

2007-06-17T21:22:00.000+08:00

I'm going insane .
Hell , I don't know whats happening .
I feel like breaking down so badly .
I feel like giving up so much .
I feel so emo right now .
I can hardly breathe .

2007-06-13T19:13:00.000+08:00

Sometimes things are so unbelievable ...
& hes gone ... Haa , how unbelievable .

Lucky me today . =/
Played swing , & my last finger got stuck onto
one of the holes on the chain , its red&swollen .
Walked , & almost banged onto the wall .
Walked , & fell into the drain . =.=

2007-06-06T21:31:00.001+08:00

Tomorrow going Genting w/ Shuyi & Sylvia .
I've not pack my bag ! I'm feeling so lazy .
Hope weather would be good , not foggy or whatever .
Cause we wanna go outdoor themepark ! (:
Contact me through my Starhub prepaid .

2007-06-05T22:23:00.000+08:00

Saw the prepaid card surprisingly
which I gave up looking for it .
I'm feeling very lazy to do anything .

2007-05-29T20:13:00.000+08:00

Had PTM . It was alright except that some part
of what teacher said really made me felt so horrible .
Then I cried like some shit on the spot . =/

English - C5
Chinese - A2
A-maths - F9
E-maths - E8
Chemistry - B4
Physics - D7
Combined Humans - A1
Class position - 35/40
L1R4 - 19
L1R5 - 27

2007-05-27T23:49:00.000+08:00

Woke up very early to jog with Xinyi .
Was very very sleepy , but was better
after jogging . (: & my throat still
hurts as much as weeks before . ):

I'm so tired of holding on ,
I'm so tired of waiting ,
whats worst is , you never cared .

2007-05-23T22:21:00.000+08:00

Disappointment , melancholy , baffled ,
furious , hilarious , incredible , awoken .
All my feelings & thoughts for the whole week .

2007-05-16T23:30:00.000+08:00

Everyone has someone they love very much ,
someone whom they had hurt deeply .
You don't have to hurt other people just
because you were hurt deeply before .
I understand how people felt , but I won't
blame anyone . Cause I know, one day they
will be able to understand too .

2007-05-11T22:06:00.000+08:00

It never fails to make me tear .
Be it in the past , or even till now .

5 more days . (:

Dental receipt.

2007-05-09T16:48:00.000+08:00

Weather nowadays so so so hot . =/
But it finally rained today . (:

7 more days ! ((:

10 May - Elective Geography . Mother Tongue Oral .
11 May - Mathematics P1 . Physics P1 .
14 May - Physics P2 . A'maths .
15 May - Chemistry P1 & P2
16 May - Mathematics P2

2007-05-05T12:33:00.000+08:00

Sleepless nights , for 3 consecutive days .
=(((((((((((((((( I badly need more sleep .
11 more days .

Exams period = temptations of food .

2007-05-02T16:25:00.000+08:00

jikalau aku mempunyai kuasa, akan ku jadi orang lain

2007-05-01T11:29:00.000+08:00

Even though I know the ending will still be
the same , even if I were to have another chance .
But somehow , I still can't forget ,
it was me , who destroyed everything .

Regrets are often led by words unsaid .

& its only 15 more days ...

2007-04-30T19:55:00.000+08:00

MT papers were tough . ):
200 pounds beauty is nice & touching .
Name tag cut my hand & left me
with a 7cm cut . )):

2007-04-29T18:29:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I just feel like giving up ,
yet I don't have the courage .
But holding on really tires me out ,
its slowly tearing me apart .
Is it really worth me holding on ?
Is it really worth putting in so much effort ?

2007-04-28T10:51:00.000+08:00

6pm till 10am . Total of 16hrs of sleep .
Finally got back all the sleep I lack .
Things just went wrong yesterday .
All so wrong . =/ Okay , whatever .
MYE coming , real soon . Goodluck all .

& I've been wanting to tell you these concerns ,
even though its like lagging behind for so long .
Boy , don't smoke so much anymore ,
try to cut down on cigarettes . ((:
& don't eat so much instant noodle already ,
its not good for health to be consumed daily .

2007-04-26T19:13:00.000+08:00

& I swear , yesterday night was terrible .
You don't even bother , you won't even care ,
so why should I ? Boy , its not fair .
I've so much to say , yet I find it no point
typing it all out here , since you don't care .
Whatever , so be it . =/ Yeah .

I don't believe that my effort would just go down
the drain like this , I don't believe . Just you see .

16th May & I'm not running away from it , anymore .

2007-04-25T19:45:00.000+08:00

The hardest thing I'd have to do
is to show no emotion when you cry .
To turn around and walk away ,
pretending that I don't love .

2007-04-24T19:47:00.000+08:00

Hasn't been feeling well for the
past few days . Horrible lurh . )):
& its so hard for me to get motivated .
Okay , whatever . I don't know .
Hope that I'd get well soon & byebye . (:

We cannot learn without pain .
We won't learn unless we fall hard .
When life gives you lemons , make lemonade .
Because I didn't managed to say it , so I've lost
the game , entirely , right from th start .

2007-04-23T20:47:00.000+08:00

1 more week till MYE starts !
3 more weeks till MYE ends !
Jiayou everyone , add oil okay .
Don't give up , never ever give up .
Just hang on there , & soon it'd be over .

Happy 6th month , if only you even knew or remembered . ((:

2007-04-22T11:36:00.000+08:00

Lies after lies ,
tears after tears ,
pain after pain .
You destroyed everything .

2007-04-21T23:43:00.000+08:00

I waited , but you didn't came .

2007-04-20T19:33:00.000+08:00

To you :
Sorry for whatever I've done or
said to upset you . I'm sorry .
Don't know why , I just feel so
hell guilty , very badly . )):

To you :
I'd do anything that I can , to make it up
to you . Cause I'm sorry baby , I never meant
to hurt you . Everyday that passes , I miss you
more and more . I believe that everything happens
for a reason , you know that everybody makes
mistakes and everybody regret sometimes .
I don't want you to forget how much I love you
baby , how much I miss you .

2007-04-19T20:37:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday to Mum .
Flu & sorethroat are so irritating . )):
Hope I don't die halfway during tomorrow's
napfa due to the unable to exchange for
fresh air cause of my flu . LOL!

2007-04-18T19:09:00.000+08:00

Hello , I am horribly sick .
I guess I'd refrain from staying
online for a long period of time . ((:

Shuyi is QUEE .
Sylvia is UNCUTE .
Elaine is QUEEQUEE .

& byebye . (:

2007-04-14T12:41:00.000+08:00

No more wishing for the past .
It wasn't meant to be ,
it wasn't suppose to be .

2007-04-13T22:20:00.000+08:00

Black Friday , perhaps .
Struggled so hard to pass Napfa ,
cause my menstrual pain was killing me .
In the end , the timings after 27 people were
not recorded . But nonetheless , great somehow .
At least timing would be better next week .
Everyone was kinda emo for the whole day ,
2.4 run had really drained out our energy I guess .
Didn't really spoke much either , pain was unbearable .
&& today I've learnt , jealousy could actually kill .

2007-04-12T18:49:00.000+08:00

Been passing up all my maths assignments ,
very fulfilling can . Some more is done by myself .
But with the help of Dawn . (: Really wanna thank
her! Sitting with her makes me have lesser worry for maths .
Cause she can teach me . THANK YOU ! (don't be too gan dong)
&& I am looking forward to post exams ! (:
Too many things I want to do , yet have to wait
till then . =(( But nevermind , shall wait .
And also Genting with Shuyi & Sylvia during June .
Just can't wait for end of exams & June to come . ((:

2007-04-11T21:52:00.000+08:00

Hope that today was a happy day for you ,
if you remembered what day it is today .

~~Goodbye , I'm getting tired of holding on .~~

2007-04-10T20:29:00.000+08:00

I've been leading my life alone ,
since you've been gone .

2007-04-09T21:08:00.000+08:00

We used to be able to read each others' mind ,
we used to be able to know whatever happened ,
without either of us having to say a single word .
But for now ? I feel so far away from you .
Doubt you even know , doubt you even care ,
I doubt you'd even bother . I guessed .
I am totally forgotten by you .

2007-04-08T11:22:00.000+08:00

There is an expiry date for fate between people .
Some is a lifetime , some is a decade , some is a few months ,
whereas for some others , is just few seconds .
My departure is not because of the lost of feelings ,
it is because our fate had reached the expiry date .

If I were to leave ,
would you still remember me ?
Maybe you'd say , As a friend , I'd want to wish you all the best .
Maybe you'd say , its the best for you to forget me .

& I don't know , if I were to leave ,
would you still remember me ?
would you still think of me ?
Maybe leaving at the time you were supposed to leave ,
is also another type of blessing , in disguise .

2007-04-07T23:41:00.000+08:00

Emotions are taking over me .
Somehow its getting on my nerves .
To hell with you , emotions .

2007-04-06T23:51:00.000+08:00

Life is just like a script , its just that you'd have to
decide who will be the playwright of your life .

Getting more random , but I'd make it a point
to post everyday even if I've nothing to say .

2007-04-04T19:39:00.000+08:00

Its pretty hilarious when thinking of all
the good memories can make you cry ..

2007-04-03T19:55:00.000+08:00

Sometimes things will turn out better ,
if you look at it in another perspective . (:

my red & swollen eyes last sat =/ taken by xy .

2007-04-02T20:26:00.000+08:00

This is gonna be a bloody long post ,
I am just blabbering everything out .

Let all these be the last time , I am gonna get over with
all the unhappiness& be positive in whatever aspects in life .
I know I've been repeating this since ages ago .
But I just can't seem to be able to let go .
& I know even if time were to be turned back ,
things won't be the same , we won't have this ending .
Nonetheless , I wanna thank you .
Thank the you who changed because of me ,
thank the you who loved me at the period of time ,
thank the you who stood by me all the while ,
thank the you who brought the joy& laughters to me ,
thank the you who accompanied me on the phone at late nights ,
thank the you who accompanied me with messages ,
thank the you who broke your promises to be with me ,
thank the you who split open my heart with sharp knives .

Sometimes I pondered so much ,
I wondered for so long , why is it like this ?
Why must I make my own life miserable ?
Why must I give myself the unwanted stress ?
There is just so much I wanna give up on .
So many times I just felt like letting everything go ,
& just let it turn on the way it is .
I can choose to not even bother about studies ,
just let my grades be the way it always are .
I don't even have to give a damn about it ,
but why am I doing all these , just hoping not to
disappoint anyone who cast their hopes on me .

2007-04-01T14:31:00.000+08:00

As you thought about how far you've come ,
have you ever thought about who were the ones
who were there to help you along the road ?

Getting more & more random .
Supposed to go Gym for workout today ,
canceled due to laziness & tiredness .
& so I slept from 7pm yesterday till 7am today .
Then again , from 9am till 1pm . Frigging tired .
& I didn't realise today was April's Fool until I
got tricked by some people . Okay , I am a fool . -.-
I am gonna stay at home & mug hard today . (:
& to replenish myself with more & more sleep !
3 more weeks to mug hard . Worrying for Maths .
I hate Maths , yet I wanna pass Maths . Contradicting .

Who else can make me feel so sad ,
yet so happy at the same time ?
Who else can make me feel so loved ,
yet so gracious at the same time ?
This boy who holds the only key , to my heart.
This boy whom I can never take my eyes off .
& yes , its you my dear . <3

2007-03-31T18:17:00.000+08:00

Met up with the girls for breakfast at Mac .
Then took bus to CCK & took mrt to RafflesPlace .
Then to Ghoby Gaut & walked all the way to Orchard Mrt ,
then went Lavender , all around asking for donations .
Many were willing to donate without being asked .
Whereas some avoided & pretended nothing after being asked .
&& Theres this cute malay guy who is absolutely cute . (:
I asked him for donations , he was walking while digging his pocket .
Then he have to catch up with his friend while crossing traffic light ,
he looked at me & gave me the sad look as he can't donate .
Then later he came out from ICA building , his friend smiled ,
& gave the "haha" at me as he looked at me .
Then I "haha" back to him & smiled , then the malay boy donated .
Then he smiled & said some stuffs , which I forgot . Hes very cute !
& I kept on blabbering about the cute boy throughout . =D
Ya'da ya'da & I am lazy to elaborate what happened .
Went Bugis aftermath , then went back school to give tin .
Then went BPP to buy stuffs & home'd ~

2007-03-30T19:46:00.000+08:00

The 2.4 run/jog today was kinda screwed up .
Walked all the way , 20mins1oseconds .
Got back previous A'maths test , which was like shit .
Got 1/20 for it , not bad . I thought I'd get 0 . =x
I swear co juniors were freaking cute . (:
Lovable I'd say . Bugged Yiwen & me for hp numbers .
& even said wanna prank call us , cute man .
Tomorrow going Town to do StJohn's flag day thing .
Don't know how will it goes =/ never do before .
Gonna mug hard for MYE , good luck to me . =D

2007-03-29T18:50:00.000+08:00

Did you ever feel like you wanna be
someone else for just one day ?
Did you ever feel like you wanna see
through another pair of eyes ?
Did you ever feel like you should have
said something smarter at the time ?
Did you ever feel like you should have
kept it all the things to yourself ?
Did you ever think it might be your fault
than to be on others ?
Did you ever really think of me
when I walked away ...

You asked me , which is important ? Me or your life .
I replied , "My life" & you walked away ...
Without knowing that you're actually my life .

Don't try to snap me ! ^^V Proud of school ~

Beautiful , it seemed .

Wonderful stuffs I've been eating for past days .

2007-03-28T17:22:00.000+08:00

When I'm with you , I'm close to tears .
When you told me you loved me ,
I wonder how true it was .
When I told you I love you ,
I meant it with every fibre of my soul.
But somehow, we were never meant for each other .

Moodswings every now & then .
Utterly disappointed, stressed up .
Don't know what the hell I am doing for these few days .
Hope things will turn for the better . =/
Sorry for having to make you tolerate w/ my temper ,
sorry for having to attitude you every now&then ,

Yes , you're right . I don't deserve anything .
Someone like me , don't deserve to be treated so well ,
don't deserve to be showered with love or concern ,
don't deserve to even be bothered by anyone ,
right . Then just let me be , let me be alone then .

2007-03-27T18:04:00.000+08:00

Some things happened & made me learnt .
& I realised , sometimes its beyond our
means to control things thats happening .
We might do everything to prevent it ,
do every precaution to stop it , but still .
It will still happen , its beyond what we can do .
Sometimes we just have no choice , but to
leave it to God . Its God's will . ((:

I miss eating waffles ! Like 2 days since I last ate it ! ):
&& I miss Rockery's Banana Tango too ! Awww ~

Its not that I don't wanna reply your sms , but just take a look
at your sms , you're sending the same thing everyday .
Asking the same thing over and over again for everyday ,
don't you find it irritating ? If you don't , seriously I am .
I don't wanna tell you straight to your face & make you awkward ,
but seriously , stop irritating me when I didn't reply your sms .
I feel very fucked up with it , please please please stop it .

2007-03-26T18:10:00.000+08:00

Sitting with Dawn is always enjoyable .
Cause we two are always either talking non'stop ,
or laughing at each others' laughters & stuffs .
Laughed like hell out of a very small thing during recess ,
cause Zhuona & me ate black pepper meat . Then I was saying ,
"hei jiao rou" which also is black pepper meat -.- .
Then Dawn say is "hei hu jiao rou lah" then also don't know what ,
play around & stuffs , till I become called "bei jiao" , white bird.
Zhuona become "orh jiao", black bird & Dawn , BLUEBIRD . lol =x
Went to Lot1 after Geography remedial , watch them eat KFC .
Then went Library , found a nice chinese novel .
Like so bloody long since I ever read a book .
Haa ~ Then lrt'ed home . =DD

Very touched to see Dawn's & Xinyi's blog .
Haa . *tears rolling* I am only kidding .
Don't worry , no matter how tough things are ,
I won't cry , I won't break down .
Haa , remember hor , I am strong de okay !
Anyway , you two ah , don't be so ji dong hor .
Let nature take its course ,
I don't even bother about it already ,
so you two should be too .

BEARBEAR . (:
Don't know if you will be reading my blog mah .
But nevermind , hope you can see this uh .
Cheer up alrights , don't be sad over that kinda things .
Things are like that , life is unfair . Thats the way .
You can't blame anyone or what lur , its God's decision .
But its okay , you still have me ! (:
Whenever you feel down or what , just gimme a message .
I don't promise that I'd make you happier ,
but I promise to be there for you always . =D

2007-03-25T19:01:00.000+08:00

2007-03-24T22:53:00.000+08:00

Met up with Shuyi around 1.3opm .
Then met up with Sylvia at BukitGombak .
Went to Bugis , walked around Junction .
Then they said my eyelash curler very cute ,
thus they went SaSa to get one each too .
Then headed to Seiyu , to buy their stuffs .
Then went to Orchard , went FarEast .
As Shuyi wanted to buy bag , went looking around .
Then the 3 of us each saw a bag that we wanted ,
from this particular shop . Then spent awhile there .
The uncle damn funny . Said Sylvia looked fierce .
Then he guessed we how old , he said Shuyi 15 ,
Sylvia 17 & me 16 . >< Lol , very entertaining lah .
Then we went to 5th floor to eat , spent 1 hr plus eating .
Shuyi said she wanted a change in colour of her bag ,
thus we went back to the uncle again .
Then the uncle keep on saying Sylvia look fierce ,
say Shuyi look like shyshy der , like girl-next-door ,
then keep say I look very cute . We laughed like mad .
Left FarEast , & walked to Heeren . Took neoprints &
walked around HMV . & HOME'D . (:

Weilun is another entertaining one .
Double click for larger image . =D

2007-03-23T19:44:00.000+08:00

If you're ever gonna see this post , good for you .
Be it with or without you , I am living on pretty fine .
Hope you're doing the fine & great too ,
though things ain't the same anymore .
Just hope that you'd be happy now ,
and its all that I want to be , for you to be happy ...
Pretending is happiness , & love won't
come knocking at your door again&again
after you had chased it away . (: